waiting in vain

" The long wait is over.He is back. But why it seems like he's not here? I still miss Him. Yes he's here with me...but I can't feel him. "

Yun lang nasabi ko nong tanungin ako ng kaibigan ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko ngayong nanandito na sya.
Ang tagal ko syang hinintay. Matagal ko'ng hinintay ang pagkakakataon na 'to na makasama siya.

Pero hindi na pala siya sa akin...

People count up the faults of those who keep them waiting- french proverb quotes

PAN or FAN?

time: after ng nakakawindang at nakakapraning na exam sa Stat
scenario: nakatambay habang lumalaklak
cast: missGuided, hotness, sexy, gorgeous, Dj chorva(visitor), hotguy, not-so-hot-guy, & billiard boys
(backround song: cookie jar by gym class heroes)

Dj chorva: wait...tama ba to'ng nababasa ko? or ina-amat na'ko?
hotness: bakit nakaka ilan ka na ba?
sexy: hahabol ka pa sa'min ryt?
missGuided: mahina ka pala e?
hotguy,not-so-hot-guy,billiardboys: hahahah(pang-asar)
Dj chorva: No! one on one pa tayo o?
Basahin nyo yun oh?


Dj chorva: Bawal pala tambay,mag yosi at gumamit ng PAN dito? eh asan ba ang kawali?

*uberr laugh trip*

Dahil mainit ang panahon ngayon, mahirap lumaklak ng walang PAN, i mean FAN(as in electric fan).

Matagal na kami nagsu-Sunog Baga don. Kung di pa nabangit nong dayong frend namin.. di namin mapapansin yun. Ngayon namin napatunayan na di nagpo-process ng maayos ang mga neurons namin sa utak kapag lango kmi sa alak.*haha*

I confess..

I have a fear of cotton buds, each time I see one I run away from it.It may sound stupid but its true!

I absolutely cant stand them! It's not the way they look or the way they sound. It just freaks me out! when u pull them apart and just..eww! my skin crawls just thinking about them or when you rub them between your fingers, yuCk!

My odd fear on cotton buds started when my brother throw me one bag and chase me with those. I almost cry after that. Since then,every time I see them it drives me insane.

I ask my professor about it and he said that:

" I think it is more of a sensory issue than a phobia "

I search it on the net and I found out that I am not the only one who freaks out whenever they see cotton buds. there are lot of them out there who are afraid of it...Hindi ako nag iisa!*haha*

you? what are you afraid of?

"There would be no one to frighten you if you refused to be afraid."
-Mohandas K. Gandhi

ako ang Bida

Nangangarap ka ba ng gising?

ako oo. 45 minuto ng araw ko ay nakalaan para mangarap!*day-dreaming-mode*haha!
Pero ano ba'ng masama don? wala naman di ba? Yun na nga lang ang tanging pwede natin gawin ng hindi nag lalabas ng singkong duling mula sa ating bulsa. Sa kabila ng Krisis na kinakaharap ng ekonomiya,pagkawala ng trabaho,at pagtaas ng bilihin,ito na lang ang libre sa mundo...ang Mangarap,take note nang gising.haha

Nakatulala sa kawalan.Nag iisip. Nagmu-munimuni. Nangangarap sa mga bagay bagay na nais mangyari sa akin o mabago sa paligid ko. yan ang kadalasan ko'ng ginagawa pagka mulat ng aking mga mata. Bago ako bumangon at harapin ang magulo ngunit masaya kong mundo.

Dito mahal niya ako at mahal ko siya. Dito lahat ng ginagawa ko ay tama. Dito buong pagkatao ko ay nais nila. Dito lahat ng gusto ko pwede.Dito maraming chocolate.Dito kasama ko si Ed westwick at kaibigan ko si blaire and serena.Dito maraming libro at magazine. Dito naglalakad ako sa peurto gallera kasama si Piolo Pascual.Dito malaya ako.Dito masaya ako.Dito ako ang sentro ng lahat. Dito sa akin umiikot ang mundo. Dito ako ang Bida.Ito ang mundo ko.

wooh masarap mangarap. Kahit dito lang makukuha ko ang mga bagay na hindi pwede. Mga bagay na hindi talaga para sa atin. Na kahit masakit kailangan natin tangapin.

Masarap mangagrap. ngunit ayon sa paborito ko'ng professor:

" you know it is okay for us to daydream. actually it is good in our cognitive thinking and it exercise our imagination. But you should know when to stop.because once you got trapped there you can not comeback. "

" daydreaming too much can cause neurosis then it may lead into psychosis. "

Kailangan marunong ka'ng bumalik sa riyalidad(reality). Dahil kung hindi maari kang makulong diyan at mahirap nang bumalik. Pag nakita ko si Piolo Pascual sa kanan ko at si Richard Guttierez sa Kaliwa ko. Isa lang ibig sabihin nyan...napapa-Praning na'ko.

I know whats the difference between Fantasy and Reality.

Kaya ako..after 45minutes sa aking artificial na mundo bumabalik na ako sa tunay kong mundo...dahil oras na para pumasok.Mahirap ng ma-late*haha*. Yan ang real world ko.

***

"Human beings have an inalienable right to invent themselves
"- Germaine Greere

alter Ego

everyone has other side. Some wants to show their other self some do not. It depends on us.
Our other self or alter ego represents what is innate on us ....it represents what we want to be...

"The term alter ego is commonly used in literature analysis and comparison to describe characters who are psychologically identical, or sometimes to describe a character as an alter ego of the author, a fictional character whose behavior, speech or thoughts intentionally represent those of the author."
-That's what my Social sci prof. said

If Miley Cyrus is Hannah Montana...
Robyn Fenty is Rihanna..
Christina aguilera is Baby Jane..
Beyonce is Sasha Fierce..
Britney Spears is Amy..
Mariah Carey is Mimi..
Eminem is Slim Shady..

...Well meron din ako nyan

My alter Ego is MissGuided. (feeling celeb*laugh*)
Miss Guided is a psychology student, who luvs kids, enjoys watching gossipgirl, eats a lot of chopsuey, spent his 2/4's of her day surfing the net, kills every ipis that she saw, writes everything she has experience, thinks a lot, analyze peoples behavior, has a patience which is as long as San Juanico Bridge*laugh*, listens to mariah's love songs, adores britney spears, lives her life to the fullest and... bites her nails every 2 hours.*haha*

how about you who is your alter Ego?

you pushed the wrong button

girlfriend: your friend is an ass****e! he shouldn't approach me that way. i deserve more than that. i deserve some respect after all. but still naiintindihan ko sya why he reacted like that.just next time he should not do that again...and he should understand me also why i did that..

gayfriend: why? hindi makitid ang utak nya para hindi intindihn ang bagay na hindi mo kaya paintindihin na ikaw mismo hindi mo maintindihan..

girlfriend: what are you trying to say? you know nothing?

....blah..blah...blah!!!

its just an excerpt from an argument between my friends.
that was just a simple talk...
then confrontation...
then an argument...
then lead into a fight...

it all started because of...

missguided: what happen?is he okay? did he understand why she did that?

i pushed the wrong button

umiral na naman ang pagiging intregera ko.

lessons learned: just shut your mouth

"If you reveal your secrets to the wind, you should not blame the wind for revealing them to the trees."~Kahlil Gibran

Indie Films

A lot of people love watching movie. I personally enjoy watching films of different genre. Like drama, sci-fi, humor, animation, musical, action and adventure, suspense and a lot more.

We have different perspectives on what film we enjoys the most but we have the same reason why we want to watch a movie. It is because we are simply looking for a good story, preferably one we can relate to. Some of us often dream about that someday we can be the character on our favorite movie. It is our escape from reality

Every month, film Production Company releases new film in cinemas for the moviegoers. Those big companies use famous actor, award winning film director, and amazing settings with huge production budget. But now there is a new trend in motion pictures. That is Art films or also known as Independent films.
Indie film is a serious, noncommercial, or independently made film that is not aimed for a mass audience.

Now days, it is not impossible for someone to make a film. With the help of advance technology and love for arts you can produce a film. That’s why there are many foreign independent film makers.
Before I’m not a fan of Indie films. I found it confusingly disturbing because of the twist and turns of the story. But after watching “Lolita” an American Indie film about a 12-year-old girl who fell in love with his stepfather and “Irreversible” another tragic film. My thoughts have change. I notice that Indie films are the mirror of what is really happening to the society.


“Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros” is the only local Indie film that I have watched. This film has earned for itself several local and international exhibitions, nominations and awards, including the Montreal World Film Festival, Cinemalaya Independent Film Festival and the Sundance Film Festival all in 2005. It serves as an eye opener to the Filipinos that Independent films do exist here in the Philippines. Because of the huge success of this Film internationally and locally many young Filipino film makers has arise. More Indie films were produced. Some did not succeed but some followed the steps of what “Ang Pagdadalaga ni maximo Oliveros” has earned.

One of those films that made it was “Serbis”nominated for 61st Cannes Film Festival. “Kubrador” won four awards and 16 nominations from international film festivals, within 2006, including the Moscow International Film Festival for Best Picture, the Osian-Cinefan International Film Festival, and the Vancouver International Film Festival. And lastly “Donsol” have won in the Asian Marine Film Festival and Cinemalaya Independent Film Festival in 2006, as well as earned was the official selection for other film festivals including the Cairo International Film Festival and the Asian Festival of 1st Films.

I said earlier that Independent film is the mirror of what is really happening in the society. It shows only reality. The Indie film makers use their imagination to show this reality artistically to the audience even if they know that there is no lot of money they can earn in making these films. They made this for the sake of arts.
I can say that they did a marvelous job in making the moviegoers entertain. And I hope more Independent films were produced to earn more awards and inspire people.

(this is my research project in english lit. eh ano ngayon? gusto ko lang i-share.lol)

from A-Z

i saw this from other blogger. i'm posting it kasi ala lang ako mai-post *laugh*
tina-tag ko ang lahat ng nakabasa nito...

Here it goes..

A- Attached or Single? - single and luvin it.yeah
B- Best Friend? - sis
C- Cake or pie? - CAKE!!
D- Day of choice? - friday
E- Essential item? - tissue
F- Favorite Color? - Yellow
G- Gummy Bears or Worms? - gummy bears =)
H- Hometown? - south
I- Indulgence? - f00d.food.food! :D
J- June or July? - June
K- Kids? - ilovekidssomuch but i don't want to have my own as of now..
L- Life is not complete w/o - d' people i love and i care about..
M- Marriage date? - 12\27\?(haha ambisyosa)
N- Number of magazine subscriptions - no subscriptions
O- Orange or apple? - banana...*laugh*
P- Phobias? - eeEEWness dirty rats! arg!
Q- Quotes? - "why try to fit in if you are born to stand out"(fr.red)
R- Reason to smile? - the fact that i am still breathing.yeah!
S- Season of choice? - summer...babii!
T- Tag people - im tagging all who had read this..
U- Unknown fact about me - camwhore.lol
V- Vegetable? - not so
W- Worst habit? - im kinda 0c (OCD)
X- Xray or ultrasound? - xRAy
Y- Your favorite foods? - anything na luto basta chicken :)
Z- Zodiac sign - capricorn

Pre-K teacher

i love kids. i love kids that much that I volunteered as a teacher in the outreach program of my school. I am patient enough to handle those noisy,uberr kulets but cute little kids.

I started teaching since last semester pa. But this sem I am so busy because of my major subjects kaya di nako nakakapagturo. mis na nila ang teacher dyosaa nila*laugh*(yan tawag nila sa'kin.nauto ko sila.lol)

Bilang hindi ako busy last thursday... I decided to drop by don sa classroom nila.
I missed them....kaya mag babalik loob nako.haha

"Sit down before fact as a little child, be prepared to give up every preconceived notion, follow humbly wherever and to whatever abyss nature leads, or you shall learn nothing."-thomas huxley

college lyf

DON'T WE JUST LOVE COLLEGE? ...

Every New Semester:

After First Week:

After Second week:

Before the Mid-Term Exam:

During the Mid-Term Test:

After the Mid-Term Test:

Before the Final Exams:

Once We Get To Know the Final Exam Schedule:

7 Days Before the Final Exam:

6 Days Before the Final Exam:

5 Days Before the Final Exam:

4 Days Before the Final Exam:

3 Days Before the Final Exam:

2 Days Before the Final Exam:

1 Day Before the Final Exam:

The Night Before the Final Exam:

1 Hour Before the Final Exam:

During the Final Exam:
After We Walk Out of the Examination Hall:

After the Final Exam, During the Holiday:

yea i it....so0 much!
even the stress that we get every examinations, deadline of the projects,terror professors...
the joys that we gain from our classmates that becomes our friends,BFF's(sometimes Enemy), parties, drinking sessions(or drunking sessions.lol), and of course the knowledge that we learned!

"wooOHh sarap mag sunog ng kilay."


(i saw this to other multiply user...naaliw ako! so i wanna share it with you guys)


blinkyou.com

forgive and forget

we can never avoid committing mistakes as well as other committing mistakes to us, but despite committing mistakes, is there a space for forgiveness and forgetting?
others say it's easy to forgive but hard to forget,it's true because it's easy to say " okaii I have forgiven you" BUT BEHIND THOSE WORDS THE HURT IS STILL THERE right?
we all made mistakes...Impokrito ang mag sasabing hindi siya nagkakamali. I myself have done several mistakes in my life not knowing that i have done it to the people around me. Especially to the ilove, i have done so many things by impulse not knowing that what I've done is hurting them. but what i love about myself is that I learn how to say sorry if i really did something wrong to them.
we're fond of saying " tao lang ako, nagkakamali din" but for me those words are not right because some people are using those words everytime they made mistakes as an excuse. And then, they do the same mistake again and say the same excuse...
"i'm only human...blah blah blah"
nakakapagod di ba?
but we can do nothing about it... all we can do is "FORGIVE and FORGET".that's what I am doing right now....
"Forgive myself for being stupid and Forget he ever existed"(haha)

blinkyou.com

friday the 13th

are you afraid of friday the 13th?

hmm.. ano ba meron sa araw na to!

sabi sabi nila it's an unluckyday....
kaya kung ayaw mo malasin at masira ang araw mo...wag ka na lang lumabas ng house nyo...and just stay inside ur room!

ayon ang sabi sabi nila....pero sabi ni google ay:


"The actual origin of the superstition, though, appears also to be a tale in Norse mythology. Friday is named for Frigga, the free-spirited goddess of love and fertility. When Norse and Germanic tribes converted to Christianity, Frigga was banished in shame to a mountaintop and labeled a witch. It was believed that every Friday, the spiteful goddess convened a meeting with eleven other witches, plus the devil - a gathering of thirteen - and plotted ill turns of fate for the coming week. For many centuries in Scandinavia, Friday was known as "Witches' Sabbath."

"The Knights Templar were a monastic military order founded in Jerusalem in 1118 C.E., whose mission was to protect Christian pilgrims during the Crusades. Over the next two centuries, the Knights Templar became extraordinarily powerful and wealthy. Threatened by that power and eager to acquire their wealth, King Philip secretly ordered the mass arrest of all the Knights Templar in France on Friday, October 13, 1307 - Friday the 13th"

"[Rossini] was surrounded to the last by admiring and affectionate friends; and if it be true that, like so many other Italians, he regarded Friday as an unlucky day, and thirteen as an unlucky number, it is remarkable that on Friday, the 13th of November, he died"

in short madami lang ang minalas sa araw ng 13 at nag kataon na friday pa ito....
and base sa chinese neumerology....friday and number 13 is unlucky.....
pag pinag sama super unlucky.lol

13th february'09:

12:00am - start daw ng kamalasan....ayun kasalukuyan akong natutulog!

4:00am - borlog pa din.....and i think im still dreaming about him.lol

8:00am - tulog pa ata ako.... as far as i can remember 08:35 ako nagising....(magsisismula pa lang ata kamalasan ko.hehe)

12:00pm - supposed to be aalis kami ng kapatid ko kaninang mga 10 para mag grocery...eh nag warla ang ina ko at kuya ko. so di kami natuloy.damay ako wala pa kaming pag kain...
hmmmm...KAMALASAN # 1

4:00pm - bilang hindi kami natuloy ng kapatid ko sa pag larga. I decided to join my highschool friends para mag bonding at uminom., hindi nakasama yung iba namin frienD for some strange reasons or should i say alibis nila...kaya me...ces..junk...and lae lang ang nakasama.(thats KAMALASAN # 2)

8:00pm - pauwi na kmi...dahil maaga pa ang mga pasok namin bukas. Naka uwi naman kami ng ayos. ayun...pero butas ang bulsa dahil sa mahal ng bill namin sa bar(sa hydrolics and t-back) KAMALASAN #3

11:59pm - patapos na ang araw na'to at super sinesermonan na ako ng aking ina at maaga pa daw ako bukas (matutulog na lang minamalas pa,KAMALASAN #4).but before non naka usap ko si HIM sa ym and he said that "i miss u and i luv u"....

............well because of that i didn't consider that friday the 13th is unlucky! yeah!!

blinkyou.com

pen

i love writing....
alam ko di halata...
but this is where i express myself....
i write anything and everything under the sun...

kahit ano isusulat ko...
even the most personal things about me.....
kahit na yung readers ko ay hindi na natutuwa sa pinagsusulat ko.....

keber nyo! blogsite ko 'toh! haha

i don't know where did i started to fascinate into writing?
ang alam ko lang i enjoy writing in my diary before…

Until na addict ako sa pagbabasa ng mga blog entry ng mga fav kong blogger na sila yoshke at kingdadyrich

Intelligent writer talga sila. They use Humor to make their blog entry appealing.

That’s why I open up my own blog…Kahit 2 lang ang follower ko.haha.sana mag ka-hits din ako tulad ni KDR at yoshke!





I joined OE(olivarianECHO, official student publication) to exercise my ability in writing.









i am uberr hapii to say na na-publish yung mga news na pinasa ko!








and Opinion Editor pa ako!





Everything is falling into place... :)

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lovestoned()

dramas.jealousy.lie.bitch.limousine.party.fashion.catfight.love.hate.gossips.
Thats gossip girl all about.haha.

I am goosip girl addict. I know its cheesy but i love them.

I fall in love with the characters of the ever gorgeous Blair and Chuck.



Chuck and Blair are, simply put, perfect for each other. Chuck gets Blair, and Blair gets Chuck. They may fight and scheme and make ridiculous bets involving limos and human beings, but at the end of the day they love each other.


They are the perfect picture of love and hate realationship. They deserve each other.(Hindi naman ako masiyadong fan nila no? hindii nmn.*laugh*)

Here are some of my favorite lines from C B:

Chuck Bass: Not as much as I enjoyed the memory of you purring in my ear which I have been replaying over and over...
Blair Waldorf: Well erase the tape!

********

Blair Waldorf: Do you... 'like' me?
Chuck Bass: Define like.
Blair Waldorf: You have got to be kidding me.
Chuck Bass: How do you think I feel? I can't sleep! I feel sick, like there's something in my stomach... fluttering.
Blair Waldorf: Butterflies? Oh no, no, no, no no.

********

Chuck Bass: Who is that?
Blair Waldorf: Probably some bitch from Chapin.
Chuck Bass: A hot bitch from Chapin.

********

Chuck: We both know you'll do it again. It's just a question of when.
Blair: The answer is never.
Chuck: We're inevitable, Waldorf.
Blair: Despite what attraction my body has for you, my brain knows better, and yours should too. Gotta go! I have a disciplinary hearing.

********

Chuck: You're lying.
Blair: I am not.
Chuck: Your eyes are doing that thing where they don't match your mouth.
Blair: I wasn't aware that robots got jealous. Did they update your software while I was away?

.....but this one is the line that make them famous:

Chuck: You never belonged to Nate. Never have, never will.
Blair: 3words...8 letters...say it and i'm yours


WaaahH! i love them so0 much.
thanks to "dibidihan" in quiapo...i have completed the episodes of gossip girl season 1 and season 2.haha. Now im planning to buy the book series naman.(its so mahal.mag impok muna ako,but for those who already have a copy of the book...pahiram naman?)

you know you love me.xoxo.gossipgirl