waiting in vain

" The long wait is over.He is back. But why it seems like he's not here? I still miss Him. Yes he's here with me...but I can't feel him. "

Yun lang nasabi ko nong tanungin ako ng kaibigan ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko ngayong nanandito na sya.
Ang tagal ko syang hinintay. Matagal ko'ng hinintay ang pagkakakataon na 'to na makasama siya.

Pero hindi na pala siya sa akin...

People count up the faults of those who keep them waiting- french proverb quotes

PAN or FAN?

time: after ng nakakawindang at nakakapraning na exam sa Stat
scenario: nakatambay habang lumalaklak
cast: missGuided, hotness, sexy, gorgeous, Dj chorva(visitor), hotguy, not-so-hot-guy, & billiard boys
(backround song: cookie jar by gym class heroes)

Dj chorva: wait...tama ba to'ng nababasa ko? or ina-amat na'ko?
hotness: bakit nakaka ilan ka na ba?
sexy: hahabol ka pa sa'min ryt?
missGuided: mahina ka pala e?
hotguy,not-so-hot-guy,billiardboys: hahahah(pang-asar)
Dj chorva: No! one on one pa tayo o?
Basahin nyo yun oh?


Dj chorva: Bawal pala tambay,mag yosi at gumamit ng PAN dito? eh asan ba ang kawali?

*uberr laugh trip*

Dahil mainit ang panahon ngayon, mahirap lumaklak ng walang PAN, i mean FAN(as in electric fan).

Matagal na kami nagsu-Sunog Baga don. Kung di pa nabangit nong dayong frend namin.. di namin mapapansin yun. Ngayon namin napatunayan na di nagpo-process ng maayos ang mga neurons namin sa utak kapag lango kmi sa alak.*haha*

I confess..

I have a fear of cotton buds, each time I see one I run away from it.It may sound stupid but its true!

I absolutely cant stand them! It's not the way they look or the way they sound. It just freaks me out! when u pull them apart and just..eww! my skin crawls just thinking about them or when you rub them between your fingers, yuCk!

My odd fear on cotton buds started when my brother throw me one bag and chase me with those. I almost cry after that. Since then,every time I see them it drives me insane.

I ask my professor about it and he said that:

" I think it is more of a sensory issue than a phobia "

I search it on the net and I found out that I am not the only one who freaks out whenever they see cotton buds. there are lot of them out there who are afraid of it...Hindi ako nag iisa!*haha*

you? what are you afraid of?

"There would be no one to frighten you if you refused to be afraid."
-Mohandas K. Gandhi

ako ang Bida

Nangangarap ka ba ng gising?

ako oo. 45 minuto ng araw ko ay nakalaan para mangarap!*day-dreaming-mode*haha!
Pero ano ba'ng masama don? wala naman di ba? Yun na nga lang ang tanging pwede natin gawin ng hindi nag lalabas ng singkong duling mula sa ating bulsa. Sa kabila ng Krisis na kinakaharap ng ekonomiya,pagkawala ng trabaho,at pagtaas ng bilihin,ito na lang ang libre sa mundo...ang Mangarap,take note nang gising.haha

Nakatulala sa kawalan.Nag iisip. Nagmu-munimuni. Nangangarap sa mga bagay bagay na nais mangyari sa akin o mabago sa paligid ko. yan ang kadalasan ko'ng ginagawa pagka mulat ng aking mga mata. Bago ako bumangon at harapin ang magulo ngunit masaya kong mundo.

Dito mahal niya ako at mahal ko siya. Dito lahat ng ginagawa ko ay tama. Dito buong pagkatao ko ay nais nila. Dito lahat ng gusto ko pwede.Dito maraming chocolate.Dito kasama ko si Ed westwick at kaibigan ko si blaire and serena.Dito maraming libro at magazine. Dito naglalakad ako sa peurto gallera kasama si Piolo Pascual.Dito malaya ako.Dito masaya ako.Dito ako ang sentro ng lahat. Dito sa akin umiikot ang mundo. Dito ako ang Bida.Ito ang mundo ko.

wooh masarap mangarap. Kahit dito lang makukuha ko ang mga bagay na hindi pwede. Mga bagay na hindi talaga para sa atin. Na kahit masakit kailangan natin tangapin.

Masarap mangagrap. ngunit ayon sa paborito ko'ng professor:

" you know it is okay for us to daydream. actually it is good in our cognitive thinking and it exercise our imagination. But you should know when to stop.because once you got trapped there you can not comeback. "

" daydreaming too much can cause neurosis then it may lead into psychosis. "

Kailangan marunong ka'ng bumalik sa riyalidad(reality). Dahil kung hindi maari kang makulong diyan at mahirap nang bumalik. Pag nakita ko si Piolo Pascual sa kanan ko at si Richard Guttierez sa Kaliwa ko. Isa lang ibig sabihin nyan...napapa-Praning na'ko.

I know whats the difference between Fantasy and Reality.

Kaya ako..after 45minutes sa aking artificial na mundo bumabalik na ako sa tunay kong mundo...dahil oras na para pumasok.Mahirap ng ma-late*haha*. Yan ang real world ko.

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"Human beings have an inalienable right to invent themselves
"- Germaine Greere

alter Ego

everyone has other side. Some wants to show their other self some do not. It depends on us.
Our other self or alter ego represents what is innate on us ....it represents what we want to be...

"The term alter ego is commonly used in literature analysis and comparison to describe characters who are psychologically identical, or sometimes to describe a character as an alter ego of the author, a fictional character whose behavior, speech or thoughts intentionally represent those of the author."
-That's what my Social sci prof. said

If Miley Cyrus is Hannah Montana...
Robyn Fenty is Rihanna..
Christina aguilera is Baby Jane..
Beyonce is Sasha Fierce..
Britney Spears is Amy..
Mariah Carey is Mimi..
Eminem is Slim Shady..

...Well meron din ako nyan

My alter Ego is MissGuided. (feeling celeb*laugh*)
Miss Guided is a psychology student, who luvs kids, enjoys watching gossipgirl, eats a lot of chopsuey, spent his 2/4's of her day surfing the net, kills every ipis that she saw, writes everything she has experience, thinks a lot, analyze peoples behavior, has a patience which is as long as San Juanico Bridge*laugh*, listens to mariah's love songs, adores britney spears, lives her life to the fullest and... bites her nails every 2 hours.*haha*

how about you who is your alter Ego?